36w4d

I've had a few very strong surges today. Exciting. I'd love to give birth with Natalie here. That would be really awesome.
I've done a few more Hypnobabies CDs, learned the finger drop technique and the creating anestesia. Which, for some reason was annoying me so I will have to do it again.

I also viewed an unassisted HB video from someone on my message board, and it was so nice. Just an awesome video. Very calm, very plesant. Also, the baby was born with the cord around it's neck, and they just unwound it. How comforting to know it is possible to deal with things in a calm manner. LOL
I think I've just decided to use the Hibiclens in prevention of passing GBS if I have it. I don't know, I wasn't tested.

I'm also feeling a lot more calm about who attends/doesn't attend. I don't know if it's the post hypnotic suggestion of the protective bubble, but I suddenly don't care too much about it. I'm really feeling like I can deal with the goings on in the house by delegating or making my wishes known without guilt or fear of repercussions. My birth, my way.